Well, here goes this thought.

Yesterday was a day of pondering. Pondering what if I don't get the job, then what do I do. Pondering what if I do get the job, but, either a) don't like it or b) can't bring myself to leave. The thoughts that processed in my head were all to much and I felt like I was lost, even though I'm on the right path.

My manager at CC is wonderful. A down to earth young lady who has endless enthusiasm and optimism. However, her mindset for me is only Corporate. Which is not a bad direction by any means, but I am left wondering, what if I do something else. What if we talk about Management again. What if I could see what New Store Openings (NSOs) are like, what if I could possibly relocate to a store in Minnesota when they open up new stores. Much of this has to do with the move, I want to leave and live somewhere else, but is Texas the right place to do that? I like the idea of moving to someplace I have already been to, or at least visited once, to have a better sense of the territory. Although, I'm not opposed to going without knowing, for there is some fun in that thought. But Texas. I've been there once, had a great time. But could I live there?

And then the thought of AmeriCorps popped back into my head. I hesitated applying since Corporate was in my mind since the beginning of summer. But I've always had this inkling to be an AmeriCorps worker. And I found two job opportunities in WA that are right up my alley. So, what did I do last night? Applied to them. And sent follow-up e-mails to their contact person. Although I won't hear until Monday at the earliest from them, I still really want to go out there and the jobs sound perfect and so rewarding. And since I have a few more days until I hear from CC (my assessment takes a few days to process, so Monday would be THE earliest), I figure I need to have some options.

The tricky part? AmeriCorps applications aren't due officially until August 15th, and Corporate will definitely need an answer before than if I am offered the position. Which, I haven't been offered the position yet, so I shouldn't get THAT far ahead of myself. But, I tend to always get ahead of myself, for this posts' sake, I'll assume I will get an offer...

I'm headed to River Falls tonight after work. Yes, I felt the need to write this blog at 7:30 in the morning, since I've been thinking about this nonstop. And I can't wait to process things out with a great friend of mine. Never did I think life could be so confusing and full of processing. But, I'm ready to think things through.

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